I know he missed his dad last night

HIS DAD AND MOM

My husband out of no where started to talk about his dad last night! =( I love hearing stories but then again makes me sad for him because I know he misses him and wishes he could of been able to fix things when he was alive. I told myself what would I do if I lost my dad? idk I don't think there would be a day that passes that I wouldn't cry or think about him. Misi told me a story about a time when he was young and it was Christmas eve and his parents went out to Kmart to grab a few presents and Misi was soooo excited he was thinking to himself " yes I'm going to get all the toys I asked for" so when the Christmas night came he remembered his sisters opening all these presents and he sitting their hadn't got one yet until the last present came and it was for him. He opened it with a sad face and just sat there upset because he only had one!!Last night he sat there and started to tear up a lil because he said he wish he had never felt that way that night because his dad saw how sad his face was but it was cause he couldn't afford more for him..Misi realised a lot as he grew up and how important it is to just be happy with what you can afford like the lil stories below. All last night we talked a lot about his dad im sure he missed him sooo much. I cant sit here and say I feel what hes going through because I don't. But listening to his lil stories made me appreciate my dad a lot more and to be happy with what we have!!Even though he is not here with us physically we know hes with us spiritually and that we think of you often Sione Tupou Vaea=)R.I.Paradise

Talk the night away

So last night was one those nights that I missed...talking till we fell asleep=) We talked about lots of things like "IS IT BAD TO FEEL A LIL JEALOUS WHEN YOU SEE SOME ONE HAVE ALL THESE NICE THINGS AND YOU STILL HAVE CRAPPY STUFF?" and my husband says the right words... he said in order to be happy you have to enjoy and love what you can afford, but like they say you can have all these expensive cars and nice house and an expensive ring etc but all that wont love you back!! The the things we do have that matter the most we already have like our kids. We can buy the most cheapest toy for our kids and still see the same exact excitement on their faces even if it was an expensive one, which my husband was right!! Some of their toys that they got for Xmas was one THE cheapest ones and they went crazy. Some times wanting more breaks you in many different ways financially, and emotionally.
We even sat and talked about why some people treat us different or why they treat out kids different? All he could say is that their HATERS:) I wouldn't know the answer to it but my husband was saying that a lot of people wants to see us fall but we don't and no matter how many times they do us wrong and push us down we still get back up and act like everything is okay. My husband feels like every time we try it gets worse so he decided it will be all about just "US"!! Since we been trying to do us its actually been good, but i thought to myself it would be better if we were all good but i guess it will never work that way. My husband told me that he doesn't need anything expensive or fancy as long as he made his wife and kids happy! He doesn't need anybody to love him back as long as his wife and kids love him back=) because at the end of the day we are who he comes home to nobody else. Failing is not an option unless you choose to. So those of you who want us to fail Sorry bout it were still goin one hunnit!!
I asked my husband how long he will live and my husband replied till I'm one hundred five!! I smiled and kinda teary eyed because his numbers he gave me was comforting to know that hes gonna try and live that long. I asked him why 105 he said because he wanted to make sure my kids have everything and that i wont be left alone with out him=) I smiled even though some people realistically don't live that long but its still comforting to hear him say that. I love my kids and my Husband regardless of what we go through and what trials are thrown at us to face were still solid!! we fight at times but it only makes us stronger!! I may cry and wish i was never married but their just words of anger. You know we've might have messed up and didn't get the wedding we wished to have but i wouldn't have it any other way because i had Jayia as my first born and tevita as my second and nani as my third. I'm happy and grateful for all that i been through day in and day out. Grateful for my FAMILY and all that they do especially my hard working husband who may not afford fancy things but makes my life worth living for=) I love you James Newton Vaea